PEOPLE IN OR OUT OF MY FRIENDSLIST:

Please help me ask whether anyone you know is interested in adopting kittens! They're about four weeks old and there're six of them. The mums are feral and look like Persian cats ... (they even have blue eyes). They are sort of tame, but their behaviour is mostly feral (i.e. they haven't got any human contact whatsoeverbeyond food provided by the security guards). They live around the kindergarten near St. Andrew's School.

I'm asking because there are already ALOT of cats inside the school compunds where SAS is and the school admin and the churches are unlikely to be happy with it. Also the neighbourhood has A WHOLE COLONY of cats (that are half tame and fed by the aunties during their morning exercise and they're likely to become a pestilence if the next generation perpetuates.

So so I'm appealing to everyone who would like to and is able to provide a safe loving home for these kittens. Please spread the message thankyouverymuch.

And have a happy lunar new year. <3

except me, and only in the weight department. I gained 3 kg over the past term, thanks to eating and sleeping and depressive eating for the lack of friends and anything to do.

>< Bugger and damn.

And I missed school on the day they got us to see a match. I'm scraping through my tests, and there's barely any homework, and I really hate having free periods even though I should be grateful to them.

I should be mugging instead of moping like I have been over the past 8 weeks. And find something that would put off the angst and the lack of anything to do.

Why didn't I do better for the O Levels;
Why didn't I get into a JC nearer home;
Why didn't I get into a JC with people I know in it;

and so on.

It's been one month, why am I still so hung up about it? Why can't I move on and enjoy myself?
JC is such an independent life it hurts because I'm not an independent person, and I wish our teachers would give us more support, it's obvious we're not top students, no, but they choose to point us in some vague future direction to look for information on our own, which is normal, but I'm so afraid.

No, I do not particularly like my JC anymore. I'm especially terrified about how we're going to do for SPA and PW, looking at our school's results so far and the way they're kicking out students, I really really think I made the wrong choice, and I'm really really afraid.

It'll be like this for the rest of the year and next year, I want to enjoy my JC life too, but it's so unfriendly and I'm freaking out major. I can't turn back time, turn back time to when I felt secure and protected, because of people and school. I hate this fear, why am I so without a backbone, why can't I be more brave in face of the consequences?

And that is all.

(I still very much look forward to going home early and sleeping early though.  Even though the school is in effect what I asked for. I'm still undecided in what I want or even like doing. Why don't I have a mind of my own? I need to settle on something positively concrete, a happy medium and like my Econs tutor says, get anchored. I still don't know what I really like or want to do now or next year or anytime soon.

I wonder if school life has got anything to do with this. Or is it just me?)

Laxer than secondary school life, but I'm not that close to my class. And I get very put off by extra work, so my main hobby now is just sleeping very, very early and maybe revising lectures and tutorials.

I still have problems with immune system and completing homework and maths though. And I hate the long distance to school. But my mum's been very supportive, so I guess that's really not a problem.

Must, must, must move on.


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And I'm sorry I didn't get to go for 410 gathering but will next time.

Awesome, History Boys really makes you want to study. xD I wonder if I can still somehow take History mm. It was really nice to see those who came. I wonder when we'll all see each other as a whole class again ... ?

And for those whom catch 白色巨塔, I BOUGHT THE OST today at Vivo! (This is my favourite track - http://download.yousendit.com/8E5AE0B37A093FF0 ) The show's melodramatic like all Taiwanese shows, but is a good gauge as to the obstacles when working in the medical profession. :D I hope you enjoy the song!

曾在门外徘徊
终究进得门内
这不是一场梦
只求时光你别走
但愿它不是
一个结束的开始
紧握住这一刻
谱成了永恒的歌
春风吹呀吹
吹动树枝头
抖落一地愁
烦恼不再有
心跳的节奏
是无言的交流
仿佛你已开口跟我说爱我

嗯..啊...

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It's a big campus, and Yiting didn't mention the kids! :D And I'm piggybacking on the school bus, so for the next two years, it'll be sort of like primary school again.

I still miss NY and 410, a lot. And I still don't feel like moving on.

Maybe I should try and get out of the house a bit more! I still want to see lots of people. Ah well, I still need to wait until Wednesday. >.< I'm still on medication and MC, which really is not pleasant.

And cheers to everyone to got their appeals through!

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Sometimes I think I spent way too much time with E. But she's really important, so I won't give up on her. I really hope it's really all imagined.


Then we can all really just move on, I'm really fed up with being stuck at this point - I miss her, but she can't remain 17 for me forever, can she?

I dunno, but then I decided I was probably better suited at St. Andrew's, where no one would bother about me, and I would bother about no one and nobody, and that was that, and I would never ever again bother nobody, for now and always.


Nowadays, it seems like I can't do a-anything about myself and my situation, and actually that's what everyone's telling me now all the time - and I guess it's got to be time to move on, and never care about any single thing again.

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And it would be really really nice, if I could really just MOVE ON in life.

<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ukONzCkxLkk">of telling tales and biting nails are gone, </a>

But in my mind, I know they will live on and on. :)

And that's from the movie <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/To_Sir_With_Love">To Sir With Love</a>. If you were from 211 from the 2004 at NYGH, you'd know straight off, that's the song dear Ms Lee SL tried to get our class, rather unsuccessfully, to sing for Teacher's Day. I was foolish and flighty, and was uncooperative when she tried to get me to sing it (as I was with school cheers).

Yeah, here's a toast to all of you - teachers, schoolmates and friends alike - who were there for me in my schooldays, wherever I was. Every single of you. :)

<font color="#000000" size="1">>(Especially one Chen Yuling!) <3</font>